In This Life Lyrics

REMAIN IN MEMORY (Bondi)
You could walk away without a loss
Chances are as chances go
that you won't need me anymore
and measure in your step your vanity
But I know you better than that
you're not so different from me

I could walk away with no regrets
where the palest shadows move
the ghosts will roam this room
and linger at the place where we first met
There's no place for me to run
underneath this sun

While I remain in memory,
remember me

You could start again without a pause
What's the point in looking back
when there's no turning back
But in your stillest voice you sound assured
count the heart that settles fast
The iron days are past

The place you want
The place you love
The place you own
The place you call your home
Then face the fact
That facing up
Is better than backing down again alone...


DOESN'T HAVE TO BE THAT WAY (Richards)
My face
tears
sorrow
pain
is the picture of your choice

Needs
wants
concerned
But you never hear my voice

Lives
Loves
Dissolve
It's just submission that you see

Bleak
Futile
Fatal
Is there no hope for me?

What's that you say?
Things are so very bad
Maybe I should pray
Paint me a picture
but it's always old and grey
It doesn't have to
have to be that way

Beat
a horse
beat it dead
Til you've pummelled it to dirt

Give
me
dread
So I'll be glad just not to hurt

You see
tomorrow
barren
The vultures picked it clean

Hope
for better
smashed it
It isn't good to dream

What's that you say...

You only have my interests
in your heart
in your soul

You only want to help me
crawl away
and grow old

Haunts
life
announce
Like you just found out something new

Meanings
reasons
answers
But you just tell me what to do

Feed me
Clothe me
Protect me
So I can live with pain

Fires turn to embers
drowning
Beneath your kindly reign

What's that you say...


WASN'T I RIGHT THIS TIME? (AOF)
I thought I had this last one down
Either that or it's just something else
some regret I thought I'd never say I had
And to find out that I eat my words
with the same forked tongue that spits them out
until I become just what I railed about

Wasn't I right
Wasn't I right
This time?
Wasn't I right
Wasn't I right this time?

The way that I though that it'd turn out
Just exactly what I dreamt about
some people get too much of sleep to dream
and from what remains of memory
This is just what I thought it'd be
some people get too much of sleep to breathe
AROUND IN CIRCLES (Bondi)
I'm on a treadmill
A grinding flash
and everything's filled with wind
and tilting at windmills that spin everywhere
There's nothing real when there's no one there

Around in circles
I'm back again
around in circles
Black and White
Around in circles
Back to where I began
the carousel starts tonight

I'm on a circuit that never stops
I'm on the back of an arc
An electric current never goes anywhere
There's nothing real when there's no one there

and turn around...


NOWHERE (Shield)
Getting up so softly
Rising to my window
with no spare change for the light of day
The White surrounds me
at a point called only never is a mighty long time to
stay that way

Hide the broken rosary on forgotten way
The only paint left here is grey
The light is blinding
so draw the curtain
Where there's a will there's not a way

Nowhere

No whispered voice
No door that opens
There's nothing left here that I can call free
And I'm just too tired to count
Just who has walked over me

Nowhere


TRAINS (Shield)
I've been through so many stations
My feet never touch the ground
I always leave when I should have waited
Now my only comfort is the sound

I was blind to life and I left to wander
I watched the distant weather vanes
The air is just a wall of thunder
And my windows tears and rain

But right now
I ride these rails - a long way to go
I'm still very far away from home
Somebody call the conductor
The heat's travelling through my hands
And I can't get a grasp on what I am

I'll ride this train to eternity
Or at least until I reach L.A.
Then I'll turn around and ride again
My only comfort is the sound

I travel in trains


WAIT FOR ME (Bondi/Shield)
I will swallow the glass
That is stuck in my throat
Because I can't find the words to say
How I miss you
The best that passed
I never counted lost
Until you left me
And everyday begins in a dream
In a place
Where there are no promises
But I know I believe in you
If you believe in me - wait for me...
For all the promises - wait for me
For all we've ever meant - wait for me
At a point that is never crossed - wait for me
I believe there's a place for us

In the frame of a house
With the windows that pour
The light from you in the afternoon
Illuminate some forgotten way
Where pariahs speak of
Parts without a whole
And I become my own worst fear
And the guilt is left standing till it melts away
Another hope that remained in dark
Until the light of day - wait for me...
But I wish you could stay in this place
No one could ever take your place you know
You say you want to stay
But you know you've got to go away
No one could ever take your place you know

Some tomorrow evening
When the sheets cling damp to you
In the summertime
And we will lay in the heat
And become as one
Falling from this place
And you will laugh as we vindicate
All the doubts that crossed our path
I can hardly wait to see you again
And say "gravity is free..."
Wait for me...
YOU NEVER REALLY UNDERSTOOD (Bondi)
I will lie here with my head
by the cracked frame on the dresser
Where you hide behind glass
Outside where packs of dogs are running loose
Just like we used to
Somethings aren't meant to last
The night in this house
still smacks of lies that I had told you
There's cold sweat when I sleep
How can I explain the reason
My hands tremble in the morning
When I realize I'm awake
I know you never really understood

I will stand here by the fences
with my hands cut from the wires
where I shored up the lines
and you always knew where you stood
and every petty little dream you had came true
Every dream except mine
You knew we were just passing
from the grey fields to the landing
Broken windows at home
How can I explain the feeling
What I know when you were leaving
What it means to be so alone
I know you never really understood

I will sit here in this spare room
With the notes all written from you
I'm glad you got away
But this door just won't recover
like a box without a number
I can't convince you to pay
I will lie here with the memory
of every phrase that ever filled me
tortured and tongue-tied
Outside where packs of dogs
are running loose just like we used to
I still remember your eyes
I know you never really understood


CAMBRIDGE (AOF)
Wired
only halfway wired to some uncelebrated dream
Wired
in the back page listing where dust fills in the seams
We are found in no place
We are forgotten phrase

Wired
dancing across the wires like puppets on a string
Wired
and our hearts in sequence beat around a ring
We leave no stone unturned
We leave no fire unburned

There's no second guessing
for things that are out of our hands
and no tears of regret for nights that will never
heppen here in Cambridge

Broken
and our vows like split leaves
fall to earth apart
Broken
in the spaces where we never found a spark
I remember street signs
I remember plans

Once as twice
and twice as once
and once is never enough
here in Cambridge

Panic
that is set in place and cast on every breath
Panic
with which we erase what will never come to pass
In this room I fear
We will share it here

It fills me
got me on the run
There's no one here who goes by that name
There's no one here who goes by that name
Nothing lasts
and nothing's new
Oh God give me something I know is true
Give me something I know is true
Give me something I know is true
Give me something I know is true


IN THIS LIFE (Bondi/Shield)
I'll count the things that break you down
Hard against the concrete ground
and everything that gets you down
will finally fade away

Backed against a solid wall
with the same old options as before
No one here gets out alive
We'll finally get away

Take my hand and take me
down where faith replaced me
Take my arm and lead me home
Sheltered from the storm
The shadows that we've worn
Someday we'll laugh at how we've grown

Macrame a paper face
and leave it in its proper place
Face the night that stares you back
The stares will finally break

Hard to see your way
Night turns into day
for what we never said
Tomorrow starts today



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