thursday, january 23

Hi everyone. Sorry I haven't been around. You wouldn't have wanted to hear what I had to say anyway.

Things are their normal insane selves. I started my internship. That was fun. Then I showed up at the office today and found out that Mixer had apparently evaporated into thin air. Everything had been cleaned out. I babbled something to the unfamiliar woman who met me at the door like "But...but I just worked here last Thursday." She informed me that as of last Friday, the magazine was closed. No email, no phone call, nothing.

So, yeah. Three months of work down the drain. But everyone who knows me and the way my life goes won't be too surprised.

I still had Insound hanging on with that other position I applied for way the fuck back in November so thank god I didn't turn them down yet. I go in tomorrow to talk to them. I'm going to keep touching things to make sure they aren't going to evaporate.

In other news, I've been sick since Saturday, I can't find a paying job, and I have no idea when I'll see Luke again. I am detoxing from all the drugs I did over break. I am trying really hard to care about the smoking rubble that is my life. I really have a hard time writing in this thing nowadays because I just never have anything positive to say. Nothing good has happened in my life for a very long time. I'm not being self-pitying, I'm just saying bad news isn't good reading material. I'm doing you all a favor.

I'll try to update now and then if I'm ever bored or high or both. I don't think I had all that much to say to begin with. [6:12 PM]